Doing a little better!

            It’s Friday, February 18th, 2022 and I’ve been exhausted all day. I went to work early this morning and killed it at Millers. Regardless of if I am tired. I ended up driving late last night so I kind of missed sleep. Not really though. I got enough to keep me awake all day. 

I know I’ve been needing to get my nails done too. So I might be doing that today. I already got some things posted for the moment today and hopefully you enjoy that! It’s just the intro of my mini vaca. There will be more coming soon! Hehe. I did end up getting some content while I was there so that makes me very happy. I can’t wait to show you more! I need to clean my car and room again though. I tried going to the car wash place but there wasn’t a place to even vacuum!

 February 17th, 2022

My mini vacation is almost over. It’s the last day, sadly. I have had so much fun. It was very relaxing. I got some things done for you. I also was able to get some help shooting! I can’t wait to show you! I haven't edited anything yet. I’m hoping I will be able to tomorrow or something. If not, don't kill me. It will be worth it. I had so much fun shooting and seeing this small town. Defuniak Springs. It reminds me of my hometown. Not many people, very light traffic. Not much to do here other than sight see. Which was so much fun! I saw a bunch of cool antique stores, a bunch of older styled buildings in the middle of the town. Walked around the lake and saw some duckies and doggos too! They came right up to me! There was this really cool old Coca Cola plant! They turned it into a workshop now, but they kept everything original which was super cool!

Help me!

    It’s Tuesday, February 15th, 2022. I’m off of Miller’s and I am living today for me. I know I have been slacking. It’s a bunch to keep up with honestly. Creating is hard. It takes a lot of creativity, time, and effort. Some Days it’s like what more is there I can do? That’s when I start asking for ideas or come up with more approaches to help the ones who struggle, who don’t speak about it. It’s been a challenge but I love a good one!

I have been using this time off and out of town to reset. It’s much needed. I’m hoping to get more content uploaded. I need to post more. I always struggle with that, working my daily job and then having to try to keep up with when most of you are online when I need to post. Just silly things like that. I always remember to post whenever it’s too late majority of the time. So I feel the message isn’t getting out like it should be. I am working on that too. Be patient with me. I too am trying my best. I feel if I keep working harder and harder it’ll pay off soon. Hopefully. 

Doing my best to be the optimist.

 February 13th, 2022

It’s Super Bowl Sunday! For me, I just so happen to work at a sports bar! Haha, so much optimism for nothing. I got sent home early. It was so slow. We had to close at 4-5PM anyway. I needed the day. So I and my roommate decided to go skating. I got the gnarliest knot in my hip lol! 

 

I got a couple of videos. Nothing serious or anything. Just to say I skated on a wooden floor finally. That made me so happy. It was definitely different from the normal ones like back home. The different grooves of the wood. It was so nice. It’s always been a dream of mine to skate on hardwood floors since I started skating before I was five. Anyways, I got to hang out with Ruby for the evening too. That’s always fun. I’m working on trying to get better footage rolling around on an iPhone for starters before I start bringing on the bigger cameras. It has been a challenge! 

Also, I have been selected for more art projects on the way as well. I cannot wait to show you! Two poems, more for everything I have already going on with art. I will get them done eventually. I honestly need to see the time frame for it too. I totally keep forgetting to ask. When he publishes it too, I can most definitely share it for all of you. It’ll become a book of poems with my illustrations! I think that’s amazing! He mentioned a comic book strip as well. In time that will be coming along!

Keeping on, keeping on.

     Today is February 12th. 2022 and I did tell you guys I would work on the blog for pictures. I did start that! I may not have had the mental space to finish right now but it’s a start! And with my posts a little dated back it makes it easier to post pictures with the day! So I hope you guys start enjoying it a little bit more. I figured it out. I started with the beginning and worked on a couple. They also get all the photos from my laptop so it’s kind of a drag but it’s okay! 

Another thing, I’m sorry for slacking yesterday. I did a lot the other day. I have been working a lot too. I’m trying to keep my head up and keep going. Man yesterday wasn’t it. 

I ended up going skating today to ease the mind. Help me think clearer.. I had a blast. A lot of compliments. I was working on catching some footage of me skating so I could show you my hobbies. Maybe help some of you find new ones! It’s been a while since I’ve skated and I’ve never skated there before so I am learning the nicks, moves, and grooves in the ground so muscle memory didn’t look like I did today. Lmfao! I kept almost falling just for the simple fact I’m not used to the ground. How silly does that sound? I’m not used to that area and it’s scary to think that I could break something if I hit it the wrong way while trying to practice. I think that makes sense? Lol anyways I had a good day. I hope you can say the same. 

"another one bites the dust"

     It’s a nice chilly Thursday. It’s February 10th, 2022. Man time is flying by. I swear sometimes I don’t have enough time in the day. The road trip was so much fun. I got some cool seashells. I needed to getaway. I’ve been going through it. Relationship wise. I’ve lost a couple more friends. Honestly, I’m okay though. It needed to be done. Sooner or later. It was just drama and toxicity. Very draining to my character. I just can’t let it keep dragging me down. I guess lesson learned. People don’t really change. 

On another hand, work today was good. I did everything as I should have. Everything ran smoothly.  Everyone team played. It was very nice. Most places don’t work that way. I cleaned up some today in my bedroom. I washed all my bedsheets and blankets like last week and I’ve just thrown them on top essentially. I also cleaned my car out some too. It’s the little things. So I got that done today. That was nice. Sorted out my room a little bit. I’ve learned I need more hangers as well lol. I figured since it’s a more relaxed day I could just do more art or either find a cool spot to skate. 

I have to start working on more art pieces for the shirts and things as well. I know that could be a real game-changer. What do you think? What are some ideas you’re thinking of? Also, I have to work more and more on editing now since it’ll just be me. I need ideas for shoots. I'm sure I’ll figure it all out though. In time. Today's kind of a lonely one. There’s nothing wrong with that. I just have to find something to do whether it’s art tonight or some skating. It’s lowkey cold though. So stay posted. You’ll get pictures and an update of something!

"We're going on a trip in our favorite rocket ship"

 February 8th, 2022

    Happy Tuesday! I’m up early today! Moving around and being productive! Usually, I’m a lazy sack of shit and don’t ever want to get out of bed until maybe noon if not later. So I’m proud of myself. I got caught up with everything for you. Today since I got everything done I’m road tripping today.

    I’m not stressing at all today. It is what it is. I’m going to be happy today. I’m off. I get to relax. So time to get to it. 

May be dim, but it's there.

        Today February 6th, 2022. Man today and the past couple of days I’ve spent have been so long. I’ve been working non-stop. It’s like I can’t make enough at times. I’ve been stressing like no tomorrow. I need to just give away. Take the chip off of my shoulder. If I can’t do it. Then I wouldn’t still be here. I am here though. There’s got to be something more. I just have to keep my head up. No more stressing. 

Besides that Miller's has been great. I work there in the mornings and then I go to Tanja's to work until I need to go back to Miller's. I am tired but we still have to keep going when we are tired and defeated. Keep going. Just know there’s a light, even if we can’t see it, at the end of the tunnel. The reward will be far greater. I’m keeping my eye on the prize. 

     It’s the fourth of February, 2022. Right now I’m currently sitting in the Wendy’s drive thru. I’m feeling a burger. I’ve kinda been down today. I don’t know what’s going on. What do you do when you’re feeling down? 

The after shock.

     It’s Thursday, February 3rd, 2022. I'd say it’s been a productive day. I had a really nice birthday the other day too. Saw all of my friends. Went out for dinner. Had a couple of drinks. I’m sure y’all saw my new pipe for my green. I was super stoked about it. It’s already dirty as hell. Not gonna lie. All in all, though it’s been pretty chill. 

Speaking of today though, it was very productive. I’ve been needing to clean my room again and do my clothes. I spilled sweet tea on my bed last night so you can imagine how I felt and how angry I was. So now I really had to wash it! Oh well. I worked this morning at Miller's Ale House and before that, I was looking at new building structures for a new house hopefully soon. I know you used to make fun of me for my tiny car and my dream for a tiny house but I guess it’s becoming a reality soon I’m so excited! Besides that, I’ve been drawing a little more. I have gotten another job again. On top of everything else I’ve been doing. Haha it’s okay though. One thing at a time. It’s gonna come together. Be patient. The longer the wait the better the reward. I gotta keep telling myself that. 

My Birthday is almost here!

 Today is January 31st, 2022. A day before my birthday. What to do on such a day?

    Well I’ll tell you what I did! I went to see my Ruby in the morning time. I got to give her a new desk. I hope she really likes it. I loved it personally. Then I went home and napped for a couple of hours to recharge for the day. Nothing wrong with that. Then I started getting ready and I packed my bags to go see Tanja! She’s been helping me idealize and bring my goals to life. It’s amazing. We all need help. I’m going to start growing my own plants soon too. For my rabbits and I! They are going to love it! Besides the point! We went out for lunch. She actually got me to try sushi again after I don’t know how many years?! We went shopping. Watched some shows. We had fun. Then I went out to dinner with Marie and her boo, as well as my own. We had so much fun. So much laughter for one day. I got presents which wasn’t expected at all. I just wanted to hangout and spend time with my loved ones. I wanted everyone to smile. 

Learning and more learning for all of us !

 Today is January 28th, 2022. It’s an easy morning. I slept very nice. Yesterday I had a very busy day. I woke up, packed a couple of bags, and was on the road basically. Gave my babies more food, water, and kisses before I departed. I miss them so much sometimes. I feel as if I haven’t been giving them enough attention. I know Puddin understands, Whinnie on the other hand though is another story. I do happen to work a lot. 

On the bright side, it’s been a couple of good days, also learning more with Tanja on everything. She helps me with gardening, photography, editing, fashion, and even different languages. She’s been teaching me more about the different essentials. It’s been fun.