Breathe.

 June 7th, 2022

I hate to say it but I am burnt out. I am tired. Still moving, but tired. It sucks but I have to keep going. I have been doing a lot of work out of town. The experience is great for a resume but at what cost? It’s been weighing on me. I hate it. Being so far away from my babies. I don’t get to see them much anymore. I hate it. They are always so excited when I come home. T gets a little sad when I’m gone all the time too. Makes me very sad. I hate it. It’s been eating away all of my free time. I’ve become more irritable with T. I hate myself for it. I get mad and punch my car. Seeing it like that makes me go insane. I’m just waiting on parts now. I’ve just been out of it. Mentally clocked out. 

Today, like i said, I’m still going. Even with given circumstances. We have worked a good compromise. I get to work from home more. So with that being there, you already know I worked all day.

Honestly, looking back on this day I had a mental break. In times like these it's good to reflect on what's happened, or happening, and why. Look at what you needed most in the trying time. Take time for space. Most importantly, breathe. It's okay to slow down. It's okay to relax. It's okay to need space. Take YOU time.