Doing the best I can ATM.

 April 29th, 2022

It’s an early morning, I get to talk to you and check out more listings. I ate something small. I thought was pretty good. I didn’t really want to eat. Still did anyway. I have to work today so that will be fun. Lmfao sike. At least it’s with my friends and helping out where I can.  Doing my best to stay optimistic. At least my car still drives. 

Stress kills man.

 April 28th, 2022

    I’ve been tired but moving. I got into an accident today. On the way to grab my friend to get a car. That was interesting. I’ve had a day. I still can’t get over the fact that it happened. I’ll have to post pictures and show you. I was riding down the road and next thing you know I’m slamming on my brakes to stop myself from ramming into this other car. Mind you the lady got out of the car yelling at me like it was my fault. Yoooo I was so mad I had to walk away. I was going to snap. I didn’t just work my ass off to spend that kind of money on a car just to have someone else be ignorant and impatient at the expense of someone’s life. To be completely real where I hit her car, was where her kids were sitting in the car seat. Like you have got to be joking. Do you even care? Made me sick to my stomach. 

    Besides all of that, I took the day off to relax. I needed it. My brain has been so scattered. Not even going to lie. I have been forgetting everything today. People can just fuck off today. I still love you but I’m not picking up my phone today. 

Rest again? XD NO.

 April 23rd, 2022

    I have been lazy! Real freaking lazy. Lmfao. What are you gonna do about it? Jk! I can’t ask anyone to clean up my b*llsh*t and clothes. That’s my job. I made the mess. Wait, are you speaking metaphorically? Lol maybe. Maybe just speaking about the physicality of things. Who knows. I practically slept all day. Big oof. I could have done so much more. Cleaned the cage again, wash my d*mn clothes. Guys. It’s real bad this time. Let me tell you. I didn’t realize how much sh*t I was missing. Then you could say my floors could be done again too. There aren’t dishes or trash in my room I will say. So that don’t have to be done. Hasn’t been a problem. 

    I’ve been trying to keep up with the posting. It seems some days are better than others and I’m not the only one lacking here! You hear me?! Hahah! I’m jk. If I can’t make you laugh or smile it’s okay. I do my best. If anything today was a resting day. 

THE LOST BUT NEVER FORGOTTEN

 April 19th, 2022

Let me just say it’s been a good productive morning. I woke up early, got some breakfast. I was craving some pancakes so IHOP it is. They had wifi so I pulled my laptop out and started working. It was so good but it messed my stomach up so bad lmfao. I went to work, and everyone was working. Doing their thing. It was a pretty easy day. Just cleaned and detailed some more of the slingshots. I got done rather fast and got to hang out for the rest of the day. That was fun. I didn’t end up doing any chores or anything though. Hahah I helped with the airbnb’s laundry, lost my beanie in the wash, hopefully, I can find that soon. I should have brought my clothes too cause heaven knows how bad it’s piled in here. 

It is the small things.

    It’s April 16th, 2022 and currently chilling at the DMV helping a friend out with some things. I’ve been having so much fun lately. But I’ve been working. Right? I have to work the kiosk tonight and I’m waiting on a damn chair so I can comfortably talk to you. I can hook up my laptop to wifi and it’ll make it easier to watch everything and work. I wouldn’t be opposed to it. I’m really excited. 

Busy Bee

 April 15th, 2022

It’s been busy over here. Many things going on. Everything changing so quickly. I’m still looking for a place. I haven’t done my taxes but work, let me tell you. Superior. I have been doing so much of that. From Airbnb, slingshot rentals, kiosk sales, the blog, yard work. Really landscaping. It’s a lot. I had a little bit of time for myself today before I passed out. 

I took the day to skate and have fun. Trying to do something about my mental health. Lately I’ve been losing it. I haven’t been super stressed though. Doing my best at controlling that. Controlling and thinking of my actions and reactions. Patience is still a big one. I did say I’ve been working hard, right? My mind may be a mess on the inside, but on the outside, you’d never know. ;) 

Work, work, work, work, work, work

 April 8th, 2022

It’s a chilly Friday night. I’m at work quite frankly. We got the music playing, good vibes, and good crowds here today. I was skating here at the lot to try to keep warm and surprising enough I wasn’t the only one! Some little girl had some on too! I had some people watch and record. I had a lot of fun. Lots of questions about the slingshots. Some people commented on the skates. The guy from ninja warrior comes over with a poi stick I believe and my coworker does his poi balls so it’s all a show. We had a blast. 

I got to work a little bit not much on writing to you. It’s okay though. I’m not upset. I lowkey need a taller chair to sit and set up the kiosk a little nicer. Be able to access and use it a little more. In time. We are all acclimating to it being open. Which isn’t a bad thing necessarily.

Not such a bad day, I guess.

 It’s Thursday, April 7th, 2022. I was off today, it was very nice and quiet for the most part. I haven’t been feeling good the past two days anyways so, I just used the day for rest essentially. Which is good, but not so good at the same time. My poor clothes are screaming at them to put them away lol. I attempted but it didn’t work out quite like I wanted, but it’s okay! I didn’t get to clean out my car either so I can vacuum it again, as well as detail it. I did straighten up to where my room and car are more sorted and they don’t have so much clutter. I work a lot, doing several things as you know, so I usually have a bunch of random work things in my poor car lol! 

I guess we could try for the good now hehe. I got to spend time online and on social media. Not sure if it’s all a good thing still. I did notice the things happening in this world, the way it's constantly changing. How ugly and negative everything has become. I started thinking and brainstorming ideas for a tik tok and what content to post to have more reach for sure. It will of course be mental health related and it will take on the brand name. Gave me more things to look for more like it to see structure and the best way to go about things. I also thought about more ideas for branding, like clothing, jewelry, dream catchers, keychains, start from there and build up. Maybe even try socks and beanies. Heheh, I need to be able to wear cool shit too! I am excited. I want to be able to do more for you.

Tiny Tiny!

 March 31st, 2022

It’s been eventful. The least to say. I got my oil finally changed, as well as the air and cabin filter. It was well overdue. I got the chance to go skating today too and got a video for you! I had a blast. I’m finally starting to get a grip on things. Trying to financially figure out some more things on the to-do list. I’ve been looking into getting a tiny house as you know and I found one that might just be perfect. It is in Texas but I talked to the lovey lady selling it. Turns out, she owned it for five years and lived in there by herself. She also mentioned the reason she was selling it, the simple fact she’s starting a family and needs more space! So that eliminated my worry for mold and other things. I know it meets the requirements for the lots. I just have to look into what size and where! That’s my next adventure. 

Always forgetful! heheh

 March 29th, 2022

    I need to finish off a couple of my previous blogs. Don’t let me forget. Anyways, Howdy do? How are you? Excuse my manners. It’s been pretty good for me. I don’t know if I told y’all but I signed a contract and started school right? Well scratch the contract. I figured out it was that perverts way of keeping me near him. He kept trying to have sex with me and then played the victim. After telling him numerous times he made me uncomfortable and I was uninterested, I blocked him because he kept blowing my phone up. I told him to leave me be more than three times. Sometimes you just have to. Mind you this b*llsh*t hasn’t even peaked yet! Matthew decided to send me a voice recording of him having sex with someone. So I’m sorry. I needed to vent. That was crazy. 

    So instead of working with Matthew, I’m working with an old friend and his company. Might as well. I think I got fired from Miller's? Regardless it’s okay. I didn’t need them anyway. I can do this. I can speak more and do more for you. I can keep my room a little more clean. I can work basically freely. I don’t have to deal with customer service. It’s nice. Unless I move upfront like he’s wanting. He hasn’t even started that yet. So that might be what I’m over later more so or less. You know? It won’t be customer service though. So I’m okay with it. Mentally cannot fake customer service but it’s okay! I am getting myself right. I am doing better. I know my efforts show, I am mad sunburnt for a translucent being. 

I think things are getting done! lmfao

 March 28th, 2022

It’s Monday for sure. I’m exhausted. I don’t want to get out of bed. I’ve been washing the slingshots all day yesterday. It wasn’t bad at all. Mind you all of the people looking at them and being in the way but it’s fine. It’s part of it. Least to say, I had fun. I got to just chill essentially. I did do a bangin’ good job though I was lowkey surprised. 

Speaking of which, I might bring my car around and wash that b*tch because she’s a weeeeee bit dirty. I would at my house but there’d be a crowd here too. Except for they're perverts. So no I’m not going outside in a swimsuit and washing here. Plus there’s been a dead lizard in the hose for how long now? It got dried out and stuck and just refuses to get out. Maybe excuses. Maybe uncomfortability. Regardless. My baby needs a bath. She’ll get one hopefully soon. 

I cleaned my room too the other day! I was shocked. It took a minute. But it’s not cluttered and you can see my bed. Lmfaooo. I didn’t do the clothes. I just moved them to where they can all be together and clean. Hahahaha they will never be lonely. I need to get on them though. Don’t judge me. 

Proud moments

 March 26th, 2022

    It’s been eventful for sure. I don’t know if I told you but I’m back in school, so I started the first chapter yesterday. It’s definitely going to take some time to get back into the school groove, maybe. It was kind of fun. I don’t know about you, but I love to learn. I’m constantly researching, about any and everything. Why not. Just reading in general. Reading to me is so calming. It’s like watching a movie in your brain that you created with the imagery inspired by the author. It’s incredible to me. One thing I’ve learned too, is knowledge is power. The more you know huh? Literally.

    On the other hand I’ve been having fun, hanging out, while working and doing school at the same time. I’ve been proud I can juggle it all and still keep afloat.