Pep Talk.

 Today’s just another ordinary day. It’s November 23, 2021, and today was the day for the interview. THE INTERVIEW. Oh my God, I have been freaking out super terribly bad about it all day. I’m more than positive I am worthy of the job, I have to stop being so hard on myself. The interview was short and sweet though. Couldn’t have asked for better. I’ve been wanting to get into Miller’s since I moved here and now I have one close to me but my friend also referred me to, that helped. I’m so excited. I hope to see an improvement in things, including my mental state. If I’m just being honest. Lately, I have been just surviving. It has been really hard for me. I want to just end it all quite frequently. So to say, the other day when I wrote, I was having a mental breakdown. I just needed to see what my thoughts were, literally. It helps me sort them out. I haven't been okay, but I hope you are. 

I’m trying to snap back. I’m back to the dishes, I still need to do my clothes, do my floors again, the list can go on. *super big sigh* Ughhhhh. Cleaning again? Ughhhhhhh. I’m just tired. Physically hurting. My bones ache. My muscles are sore. My back is beyond the burning pits of hell every couple of seconds. I’ll be fine. I just ignore it. On the bright side, I ate a lot of food today. I’m proud. I did that right. Not thanksgiving related, but a lot of food. Oh well. I had a pretty good day today with the delivery tips and normal shitty pay at that. Not bad if it was consistent. I guess that’s why God is finally answering my prayers. If anything I can work for a while to be consistent, save it all after I pay for his truck, my truck, and this speeding ticket, then maybe start getting car washes every day and move into an apartment. That’s the goal. My girl friend will be moving soon here. I cannot wait! Also my new bestie at work. Maybe there are a few things I can look forward to. I apologize if I happen to jump a lot from time to time. It is what it is. You’re loved and worth it. I promise.