Today is January 7th, 2021 and man has this world been crazy already haha! I just have come to think that this is all just a joke anyway so I don’t even pay attention to it. I don’t need it draining me anyways. Man has it been crazy in my personal life for a good minute. The condo and the drama only got worse. I figured they would figure it out but no, David punched Leeann, his ex in the face mind you, she’s around the age of 20 and he’s in his 40’s. All kinds of crap went down that night. I wasn’t even home for the love of God. I’m like this makes no sense. Why is he punching people, because he punched one of the other people in the condo? So I am moving out since they want to increase rent anyways. I’m not even gonna stress it. I am in a place for $600 mind you, it’s not my own anymore but I am in a safe environment. I can start my life anew again and not have to stress about rent or anything. I am about to get a car again. I am so excited. I have been working up to saving some money. I have been really depressed the last few weeks. I kinda quit eating for about a week. Lost all about 5lbs. Now it’s time for a change.
I now can physically see how much my depression affects me. It makes me so sad and angry on the inside because I actually put up with things I shouldn’t have to. I made the change. Changed my whole environment once more. I think this place is way better. I can still play my music. I can blog in peace. I can eat and the place stays clean. I can still smoke. Man, it's crazy how fast life can change in a day. I want to eat again. I ate last night and I drank a protein shake this morning. There is an open gym at my new apartment that is actually open. I can use the pool. If I really wanted to get away and blog in super peace they have a study area. They are newer apartments and the owner has this one decorated really nicely. I know I haven’t blogged in a good minute but I have been dissociated with life more or less. Well, my life anyways. I apologize. I am starting to get the things I want again, let's just say, Dante… :) for starters. Also a stable home, and a reliable car. Man am I so happy. It’s like we got our little family back together. Kiki, Puddin, Him, and I. I’ve been thinking and wishing that he would come back. He was the nicest man I have ever dated. We made each other feel loved. Took things slow. We moved in together and started building though rather quickly. We had each other's backs for sure. We did all kinds of different projects together. We have played together since he was a gamer. He bought a controller for me to connect to his computer so we could play together. He wanted to invest in trading together. He would ask for daily pointers and things. He made sure I ate. Made sure I had everything I wanted and needed. Pushed me to be the blogger I want to be. Helped me fix my hair and makes me get my nails done when I tell him I want to save, he tells me he gave me money. Pushed me to go out and model. Take pictures of me so I promote him. We feed and nurture each other. We take care of each other and support each other.
Boy have I missed my stable old life. I missed him. I missed our old apartment. We are in a newer one now. The way we used to be with each other. I missed how we would talk about our future. I feel much better now. I feel this year is going to be life-changing for me.
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