Distracted.

     Today is May 5th, 2021, and man has it been some time. I apologize I haven’t been writing. I’ve been distracted and not focused on me really. That’s okay though. Sometimes we all lose sight of ourselves. Man it is not good either. The devil and his temptations are everywhere disguised as an angel. I promise. We forget how good it tastes to be a sinner. I just need to cut my ties and be completely free. I am better that way. I work twice as hard but I never rest. I am just constantly on go go go mode it seems. It’s that I use work to distract myself and I never heal. That has been my only downfall. I need to keep telling myself that  “Nothing is going to change unless I make a change.” Whether that be completely taking myself from the relationship game or it be to change me. I feel like if I need to change myself though, I have got to heal, learn, love, forgive, and forget some things. When will we learn whether we are getting all of those things reciprocated back? What vibes we give off, we attract. I have given in. I have been wrong. Lord, I love you, please forgive me.