This is just nuts.

 Today is October 24th, 2020 and he is still in jail. I can’t believe he's actually gone. Still goes through my mind a lot... Yeah, of course, I miss him but I didn’t love him. He made me delete my social media, wanted me to work out and do everything he says, or if not he gets more than angry. Then he’d want to hit me. Yeah, I am alone again but I guess it's for the better. I’ll eventually be fine. Get my life back together. My mom is coming to see me today I believe. I’m not sure if my dad is coming though. We will see. I’m going to start saving money again. I have been dying to get another car. The first car I had gotten when I turned 16 was a smart car. Man, I loved that car more than I loved people. Is that sad? Well, both of my cars honestly. I got my second one at 19, it was my first sports car, it was a Mazda RX-8. That car was so nice. I loved it. I still miss it to this day. I really sometimes miss my old life. Way too much. Maybe one day, my life will be happy again.  

So this morning, I’m walking around drinking my chocolate milk, breakfast essentials, and I hear my doorbell ring. I was kinda like who could that be, but low and behold it was an officer to tell me that he will be getting out today in six hours. Well, that was heart-pounding. I asked if the no-contact order is still in place. He confirmed and told me good luck. So the day goes on and my mother gets here and the second we are leaving I see two police cars and he is in his dad's van and he was staring me down. We turned around and followed them back to my place. I flagged the police down and let them know we were literally about to go get crickets from the store because I didn’t know when he’d be getting released and I didn’t want to starve the lizard. It already didn’t eat enough as is because he forgot to mention you have to feed it at least 5 times a week when he was feeding it once a week. I felt so bad for this poor lizard. Then I heard him say he was taking it to Iago’s house and I am not surprised he’s taking it there because he was telling me he didn’t want it anymore because it’s not going to be as big as the other one he bought and gave away. That's just beyond me. Why get something if you're not going to take care of it and don’t want it. Makes me almost sick. I cried to my mom about how I didn’t know how to take care of this lizard and how it hurt me because I don't have the means of transportation to go get its food and everything else. 

What I can’t seem to understand is the fact that he brought the van to pick up the tank but didn't use it. So the police told me for him to come back he would have to get ordered from the court and have to see the judge come back again. I don’t want to see him or be with him anymore. I’m in tears once again because I just can’t wrap my mind around it all. He’s so controlling and manipulative. It’s not fair. I’m thinking next time he’s hoping I am not here so he could try to steal my things or try to see me again. I don’t know. I’m still shaken up about it all.